THE BLOG

WOW! i haven't witten in almost a month. crazy. anywho, so school has been going really good. i haven't had very much homework at all, school has been so easy thus far. that's probaly due to the fact that i only have one AP class and my core classes are really easy. Anywho.....i'm really excited about the way Hamlet is going. i'm so glad i get to be Stage Manager. And i like all the people involved in it, and their are some new folks that oi haven't ever really talked to before in it and that's good casue i can meet knew people. Anyways....yesterday was the best day of school oi havehad yet and it was all due to one class. That class was Biology AP. it was so fun. I don't think i have ever laughed so hard. It made me remember how much fun i used to have in biology in 9th grade. I kinda forgot being in Environmetal Science AP last year, cause that as just plain boring, nothing could make that class interesting.
Some of you may have heard the rumers, and yes they are true. So i made Mr. Delaney cry today in Honors A. I feel kinda bad. i knew the song as perfect for the exercise, but i felt kinda bad using my own experiences for a theatre project. But it did feel good to have everyone compliment me. i've never really had that happen to me due to my acting, and their compliments were sincere. And the really funny thing was, some people complimented me on my voice and i know i can't sing, i think it was all just the flim in my throat, cause i'm kinda sick. And that kid did the thing i said he would do! ahhhhhhh! he does it for every single person who does anything. " oh that was just so good, i was just like wow, it was so good, i love you." I hate that kids comments. he has no need to even give comments anymore because we all know he's going to ssy it was amazing regardless of what you do!!!! anyways, it's ok, i just won't take his comments to mean much. ok well that's all i camn say fo r now, i have to go pack fo r the beach! I'm so excited. Myrtle beach, Here i come!

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i hate being sick. i feel so achy and shaky and like i'm about to throw up. i cream is good when your sick though. i feel so weak, like i don't have much strength, but i do, i just don't now. i'm not being coherent, i think i'm a bit delusional. anywho. uh, nothing much has happened since i last wrote, except that i got to hang out with brittany on sunday. o. and i went to reedsville, which was absolutely fabulous. i love hanging out with that crazy ccc bunch. and talking till 5:30 in the morning like little girls at a slumber party. i'm kinda ready to go back to school, so i can go ahead and get the year over with. i really am looking at APP as the college i want to go to. i think i'm going to go visit it sometime soon. i also need to get one of those books to look up scholarships i can start applying for. anywho, sara, if you rread this, call me whenever possible, i miss you so much, and tell me when your gunna be home alone so i can come visit you, i'll park down the street i promise. ubtit doesn't really matter now since were starting schol in less than a week anyways.i'm done.

it was so awesome today, what happened. so i was hanging out with andrew illegally.... i told my dad i was hanging out with rebecca. anywho, we went to reedy creek park to roller blade, and while we were roller blading we decided to stop at the nature mueseum they have at the park. we were in there for like five minutes an in comes some people you would never guess. it was david nolan and michelle. i was so happy to see them, especially david since i haven't seen him all summmer. anyways, it had to have been fate. cause no one goes to the nature meuseum at reedy creek, especially at the same time i would be there. ah...it was just crazy..i htought i would share.

so i was reading nicks blog the other day and he was talking about how Mr. Mitchell said that he should direct a play. i htink he should really do that, because i think that nick will make a magnificent director someday and would probaly do a most fabulous job directing a play at our school. i mean, i saw tape (the play he directed in theatre three a couple of years ago) and it was just geat, i mean he did a really good job on that play. it was without a question the best student directed play in the class. so i hope he decides and gets the chance to do that next year. hey, i'll do some tech work for it if he wants me to. he should definitely be in playwriting though. because i don't think that you neccessarily have to write a play in that class next year. i think mr. D is changing up the rules for that class. but he would have alot of oppurtunites to direct in that class if he chose to. anywho....uh. well i guess thaqts all i was thinking about.
oh, but i have some more hings to say now that i think about it. well, i think i know what i waqnt to do with my life. i know that i right now i really wnat to go to APP, but i need todefinitely go take a tour of that school before i make my decision, but i really am intrigued buy the thought of going there. anyways, back to what i want to do with my life, well there is alot. first off, i want to be on staff at CCC all the summers that i am in college. that is without a question in my mind one thing i want to do. but then i want to go into the navy r the coast guard, and be on a search and rescue team, but if that doesn't work out i think i'll want to be a youth directior for a little while. i also want to go to seminary and become a minister. i think that the kind of minister i would like to be is one that works at a smaller church, that really just does sermons on sunday and special holidays, but can have another job during the week. i think wherever i live i will try and be involved in some local theatre, maybe doing some volenteer tech work. and i know that i don't want to live in a big city, so i may just end up helping out the local highschools theatre department. i kinda wanna live in a small (not to smaal, just not big like charlotte) town. that would be cool. i know i wanna have a big family too. lots of kids. but thats prety much some of the things oi want to do with my life. maybe i'll even do a little of what my dad does, orthopedics, you know, as the other job i have when i'm a minister. but i dunno. i do enjoy the cast work i do at my dads office, but i don't know if i would want it to be a career. anyways, thats about all i have for now.

you know what i was just thinkin' after watching the pepsi commercial about winning the 2 billion dollars... i was thinkin what i would do if i won that 2 billion dollars. i had a great plan. i would first off keep about one million to myself, really thats alll i really need. i plan on working for the rest of my life anyways, and thats alot in itself. but then i would give my family (intermediate) about 2 milliojn dollars to keep them going, to help them pay off my debts and their debts and get them new cars and a new house. i would definitely give a million to my aunt tammy and a milluion to each of my grandmothers, just so they don't have to worry about money anymore. any 500, ooo to my uncle randy's family and to my aunt paulas family. Then to the good stuff. i know i would give about 13 million to CMC, the childrens oncology ward. to help make the facilities for the fmilies better and to help with research. then about ten million to childrens hospitals in charlotte. that would leave about 70 million out of the firs billion and then of course the other billoin. then i would give 20 million to the church i grew up in to help them keep going strong. then i would take about ten million to the side to just give to people on the streets that i see that i think could need a litle extra dough. and of course about ten million to give to some of my good friends who might need the money. which leaves thirty million aout of the first billion. uh... i would just take that money and give it to several charity organizations except for about 2 million. i would give that to our family friend debby Liller(name changed for secretive purposes) who might need it soon if she wants to leave that crappy husband of hers. So that leaves one billion dollars. well first off i would have to say that 5oo, ooo million of that money would definitely go to Carolina Cross Connection. that would be just fabulous for them. they wouldn't have to go around begging fo r so many donations throughout the summer, and they would defintely have the money to get the materials they need for the summer. they might even be able to lower the price it costs campers to go to ccc in the summer. anywho. then they could probaly open up some more camps in differnt areas of norht carolina and spread their missions. oh it would be fabulous. you know what, make that 500, 000 million 700,000 million. they need it and its a very worthy cause. then i might give 500,000 dollars to the theatre department of northwest school of the arts. ah.... now what to do with the remaining 300,000 million? uh...i guess i would put it into the bank and save it for another worthy cause or several worthy causes. and i know all this sounds like "yeah right, like she would really give that much of the money away", but yeah i think i would. i don't want to be rich and i would love to be able to help oput all those differnet people. i probaly would give the money anonymously because i don't take people telling me thank you to well. i just don't lie being thanked. ah.... wishful thinking i guess. i wish it would happen though. but probaly not. but thats what i would do if i won 2 billion dollars.

um... so i got a 4 on my psychology AP exam, which is absolutely fabulous, and means i get a credit for college, also fabulous. Mr. Hoover really is a great teacher, i was really prepared for that test.
onward...now. i feel out of place being in charlotte now. i wish i was back up in the mountains doing good deeds for the lord and hanging out with my homies from CCC. That staff was so awesome and i already miss them so much i really wanna cry. i don't want to go back to northwest. i don't want to go back to all the people, that aren't really ad people, but make me feel as if i'm living in a sinful way. here's a for warning.... i'm a changed girl, and i am gunna try my hardest once i get back to school to show how being a christian can make you feel so good, and i'm not going to sstand around and let people make fun of jesus all the time either. i'll stand up for him,, its why i'm placed on this earth. that last sentence may sound stupid, but i'm going to do somehing to that extent. and i'm not going to be annoying and push my faith on all of you, but if there is a time i feel i neeed to defend my religion i will. But basically thats why i don't want to go back to norhtwest, because i feel like i'm going to be dragged down in my faith going back ther. of course i still love and want to see my andrew and sara and david and landon, etc... cause i love them so much. i just don't know what to do. i don't think i can take another year trapped in school. i feel like everything is happening at once. all this court/pti stuff, i got saved, ccc is ending, school is beginning, i go to worry about colllege applications, my youth director and friend is leaving, i'm trying to change my life, i miss my friend ashley and am trying to rebuild our relationship, ahhhhhhhh. when willl everything come together? i hope i get the job at bruegers. i have to start getting money in to my parents to pay them back for all this mess. which is another thing i'm not looking forward to going back to school for. i don't want all that crap from people about the whole mess we got ourselves into in may. and i am unbelievably tired of this whole andrew/nick battle. i don't even think its them bickering anymore, just their close friends. its getting more attention then it needs and i don't really think i'm on a side in this thing anymore. i'm just sitting back and watching it and laughin my head of. everybody just needs to shut up about it. who cares? its pathetic if this is still something for you to gossip about or get involved in or fight about. its over. so evrybody get over it. and i'm not really talking to nick and andrew becasue they aren't really talking about it anymore, that i know of, just the surrounding parties. ahh, i'm just so sick of hearing about it. lets have something new and big happen so we have something else to talk about.
i wish i could be back at ccc right now, surrounded by crazy christians, ah how i love them.

CCC was so fabulous. it was great.

i've been thinking about something lately though. and it really bothers
me. these past couple of months i have totally changed my ways and am
ready to follow christ whole-heartedly(if thats how you spell it). but
one of my friennds told me a story about one of his old teachers the
other day. i t was about how he used to go to parties an drink
and smoke weed and stuff and live in a totally hipocritical way because
then he would go to church the next day, kinda like me. and then
he changed his life around for god. soon after that his friends wanted
him to go to a party with them and he said he didn' want to go, but
instead invited his friends to church with them. but his friends had
seen the way he acted and wanted no part of christianity, and that
night his friends died in a car accident. he didn't get the chance to
make them believers in chris and he knew he wouldn't be seeing them in
heaven, according to what he believed. and it all makes mew think about
me and my friends. i haven't shown the love of christ to any f them and
if one of them thst was a non-beliver died today iwould have their
blood on my hands, because i didn't even try to witness to them.
umm....yeah. so i'm gunna try and startt doing that, but it will be
hard seeung as how kids at northwest have very extreme veiws on
religion and are set in their beliefs. uh.. thats all i have to
say.kinda random